Vanish into a Life

“Something has been bothering you.
I know you.
I can sense it.”

“I know you think deep.
You don’t get happy easily.
Go live your life.
Don’t be afraid.
Do whatever you like.”

The words resonate
like a mantra of my liberation

My steps are tied
despite wanting to run

It feels like I don’t belong anywhere
neither inside nor outside

My speech held back
despite wanting to speak

My words are just heard
not fully listened to

I feel not understood
despite being understood

My mind is burning
my heart runs wild

I’m looking for depth
yet I find the water too shallow

I need that spark that awakens
my entire being

I might step out
and keep running

I might snap—
vanish into a life
never be found again